"Everything is your fault", he says...
How do you explain the abuse? What do you say in such little space? The years of abuse were long. The violent actions towards you were many. From a slap behind the head "because perhaps your answer was not immediate enough", to "perhaps being pulled out of the car and falling on the floor" because you did not come out fast enough, to "perhaps having the hot water turned off while you were taking a shower, because this morning you were being noisy when you were washing the dishes", or "perhaps having glasses of water thrown on you while you were sleeping--because you didn't answer when he was speaking to you". How do you explain this to others that don't understand? What do you tell a woman who is living this abuse? "Everything is your fault", he says... The bruises go away, the emotional and physical scars remain... "You enjoy being a victim,", he says...
"Everything is my fault" I think... "I will learn to love myself first..."
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